Last night was a really rough night… I was dealing with some stuff that really hit me emotionally, but needed to be dealt with. It was like an emotional cleanse and I woke up feeling great this morning. I even exercised… in the morning and for me that is HUGE because I am not a morning person, and I don’t care to get the stupid worm! I also got on the scale and was down, and let’s be honest – if that isn’t a mood booster for a chubby chick on a weight loss mission than what is?
I haven’t started the C25K yet, but plan to tomorrow and am very excited to be beginning a journey to do something only skinny healthy people do… run. I have never liked running, because… really fat people don’t like to run, but I have always been envious of runners and their amazing bodies. When I auditioned for the Biggest Loser I said I wanted to get in good enough shape to run a marathon. (Yes, I did audition for the Biggest Loser and they made a big mistake of not picking me, huge! JK!) I still would love to run a marathon someday, to me that is when I will know I have really gotten there. To me that would be more important than a number on the scale or a size of clothing because that signifies true health. You cannot get true health from a pill, a drink or any other quick fix way. True health is something that takes time, constant effort and a lot of work.
I have said before I am an instant results type gal and I lose patience (give up) pretty quick. This journey to achieve true health has tested my patience more than I would like to admit. Sometimes I do really good and don’t lose and other times I do really bad and it doesn’t show much either, and then there are those times I think I am doing good and I gain?! That is when I have had to reevaluate and find where I need to make some adjustments. Accepting that everyone is different and I am not going to lose the same as Shannon or whoever is a realization I have come to accept and know I get to keep working and I will reach my goals when it is right for me.
Another great quote I got from some fabulous person on twitter:
“No matter what is happening in your life right now, TRUST that all is good and unfolding in your best interests.”
I believe we go through hard times to make us stronger, so we can learn, grow and really appreciate the good things in life. Weight loss isn’t necessarily easy, but if it was would we appreciate it? I feel like I am a stronger woman today than I was yesterday and I am so excited to focus my strength and energy on achieving my goals… on running a 5K in September. You don’t know how amazing that is to me… I never would have thought of me as a “runner” even though I always secretly wanted to be.
Thank you, all of you, for your kind words and support. Each day is an opportunity to make the world a better place!
An emotional (in a positive sense) and excited Angie